First I put on MAC's Smoke & Diamonds with Circa Plum pigment all up in the crease.
NO. I did not feel the love.
I sighed, reached for the baby wipes and started afresh.
NARS Bellissima Duo with a kick of liquid liner? Sounds promising.
Got this look wrong
once twice FIVE TIMES, because apparently I'm incapable of putting on liquid eyeliner.
I went back for more four times and I was rebuffed each time. My makeup was having a field day.
At this point I considered crying. It certainly wouldn't have ruined anything on my face. I might've cried a bit; I was not only having a horrible face day, but a fat day too. Kiwi's tummy rumbled alarmingly as I went in for the sixth and seventh attempts at my makeup and fourth and fifth at my outfit.
The funny thing was, each time I angled my face toward him for approval, he said the same thing: "You look just as nice as yesterday." Frustrating compliments at this point in my full-scale emotional paddy.
In the end I decided on MAC's Amber Lights with blah-blah-blah Brown blended in. My liquid liner was pert and flirty-flicked on one side and virtually horizontal on the other. I was wearing four shades of blush (I can actually name all four shades I was wearing on one sole cheek) as my indecision took hold and I tried to match the tones of my blush with the tones of my eye makeup.
Then... Lipstick? I felt like crying.
In the end, I wore all black (with Converse), and wonky eye makeup. I felt like I was attending some kind of casual funeral (with Converse). I whined endlessly about how hideous I felt, how ugly, how revolting.
And then the waiter brought my food and I forgot about how hideous I looked until 2 hours later when I caught sight of myself in front of a mirror.
The moral of this story? I need to stop freaking out when I accidentally 'lose control' and fail to look attractive. Apparently I look pretty much the same no matter what I slap on my face... So for those days when I feel like the most hideous creation in the world, at least I know I looked the same as yesterday.
Well, I can try.